Trying to get back to my productive self after the death of my Love, photo partner and always there friend. Gayle never had a bad day that I could tell . Up in the morning early when ever I said and would sit for hours and study photo's with me, then suddenly cancer reared it's ugly head and she was gone in 3 weeks. Still trying to wrap my head around it, but forward from Dec 4 '2020, to today, I have been out a couple times and am starting to make sense of things the best I can . It was the final push that got me to retire fully. I am sorry to lay this out here, but sometimes when we get to this age there are not to many people around. I feel the urge again we'll see if I go in the same direction. Thanks everyone.